Never dreamed He would say yes

First of all, I can’t believe my husband is a tweeter now. I am so against twitter it’s not even funny. That’s not to say I won’t change my mind in the future. I just think it makes no sense to twitter right now when we have Ice Age phones that don’t have wireless internet capability. I think it’s Brent’s way of convincing me to get him an iPhone or Google phone. Good luck, babe 🙂

On to the good stuff…and let me just say that this entire blog entry is for God’s glory. If you were led here by my facebook status, I simply want you to know of God’s goodness. I’m not looking for more blog followers. I want all of you to know that the one and only God is faithful, shows favor to His children, and gives us the desires of our hearts. I don’t want you to miss the details of God’s plan. I hope you find this worth your time.
I believe I was made for this. I was brought to where I am for such a time as this. Knowing what I know now and reflecting on the past 2 years, God has been at work in every single second of my life, preparing me for what I will be doing starting on August 10, 2009—teaching at my church’s new Christian Academy. And it’s no ordinary job. It’s a mission field where I will get to disciple students everyday of my life, while I use the gifts and talents God has given me as an educator. I can’t tell you how much joy that gives me. My heart’s desire since high school has been to minister to young people. I’ve been doing that for nearly 2 years with my wonderful girls in SS and bible study. He has already granted me that desire and now He is broadening my mission field to disciple my students as well. I want to give you a chronological list of events that have led me to this place, because I feel that every situation I have been in prepared me for the next step in God’s plan.
July 2007–Brent and I leave Fort Myers, FL to unexpectedly move to Alabama.
August 2007–I begin a temporary position at a public elementary school teaching 5th grade. For 3 months, Brent and I are looking for a church to serve in.
October 2007-During a carpool duty conversation with a kindergarten teacher, I am invited to visit her church. We went the following Sunday and joined the Sunday after that. I quickly learn and become interested in the pastor’s vision for a Christian Academy in the near future. I can’t express how grateful I am for this lady and her obedience to God to invite me to her church. None of this would have ever happened. She was a vital part of God’s plan.
November-December 2007–I become disgusted with my work situation and look for any and every opportunity to get out! A receptionist position opens up at my church. I apply, interview, get the job and turn it down. I knew God wasn’t ready for me to quit the teaching profession.
February 2008–Taught the high school girls at a disciple now at my church. Our host home was one of the pastors at my church, who was also the church representative on the school board for the Academy. I was given the opportunity to make my interest known.
January-May 2008–My job at the first school ended and, thanks to my asst. principal, I was given another job teaching 5th grade at a different school. I was sure to get a permanent position at either school I had worked at and didn’t.
May-July 2008–After lots of time spent in the Word and in prayer, I realized that it wasn’t in God’s plan to teach at the previous public schools, no matter how much it didn’t make sense in my finite mind. I felt God calling me to just wait one more year and He would bless me with a job at the Christian Academy. So I began looking for something to get me through the next school year, while I prayed to trust God and His promise of something amazing down the road.
July 2008–Offered a job to teach Kindergarten at a preschool THE SAME DAY that I was contacted to serve as a volunteer on the Curriculum and Education team with the Academy. Coincidently (even though it’s not a coincidence at all, it’s the work of an Almighty God), I would be teaching Saxon Math and A Beka Reading which were 2 of the curricula I would be researching and reviewing for the Academy.
August 2008-May 2009–worked with 24 incredible Kindergarten students that challenged me and gave me such joy at the same time.
April 29, 2009–My first interview with the Academy.
May 11, 2009–This day is very important. I forgot to tell you that in the midst of all this job stuff, Brent and I began praying for a baby in January 2009. On this day, I signed the offer letter for a teaching position at the Academy AND found out I was pregnant!
Today–got back from one amazing conference on Kingdom Education and how to become a Kindgom educator. I had the privilege of getting to know the wonderful principal and teachers I will be working with.
I never dreamed He would say yes. I prayed for this. At times, many times, I doubted Him. But He said, “Yes, Brittany.” And not only did he say yes, He said, “I have fully equipped you to do what I have called you to do . You have no reason to doubt or fear, for I am working in you, I am the one teaching and discipling these students. I just need to use your physical body to allow Me to manifest Myself in you to accomplish My will.” He said yes to both of my desires. Why? Why did He choose me to show favor upon? Who am I that He would want to love me enough to actually give me what I asked for? I am nothing, but He wants to use me for His glory. Wow…just utterly humbled and in awe of Him. I have learned that I can’t put God in a box. I can’t pray for something and then think He’s not big enough to make it happen. From now on when I pray, I will dream that He will say yes. And if His answer is not yes, I will dream that His plan is greater than mine. I hope that I will always reflect on the past 2 years and know that He is always faithful. He might not say yes immediately and He may never say yes. But I know that if He doesn’t say yes immediately, He will give me the patience and trust to wait on Him and His timing. And if He never says yes, He will make me satisfied with a “no” and offer something better. He always desires the best for me, and for you.
As a little side note, my new favorite song is “What Do I Know of Holy” by Addison Road. You need to download it now 🙂

The Eye Doctor

I don’t know what the deal is, but Brent and I choose the worst eye doctors and dentists. Yet, we haven’t done anything about it. We just keep going back to the same places. I guess it’s just easier, we aren’t new patients, no paperwork and such. But I am announcing today that I am officially done with my current optometrist’s office. First of all, the employees there are extremely rude and unhelpful. Second of all, I’ve been there three times and never seen the same doctor. Turnover must be high, which means employees must be unhappy. I’m not very consistent with my eye appointments. I’m actually a “rebel” when it comes to wearing contacts, wearing them a lot longer than suggested. Therefore, I make sure the contacts I have will last a year at the least and then make an appointment when I’m out. Today was the day. I had an appointment scheduled for 4:30. I arrived early, about 4:15 and I was taken back immediately for the eye exam. Usually not having to wait is a good thing…this time it was evidence of little expertise. I was welcomed into the room by a very nice mid 40’s lady that I’ve never seen before. I was shocked because I’ve never felt “welcome” at this office. After she got done asking me questions, ones that she should already know the answers to because I’m not a new patient, she began the exam. Not only have I never had the same eye doctor, I’ve never had the same routine done during an exam. This time, the routine was chaos. The doctor would start something, stop, and start something else as if she was running through a checklist in her head saying, “Oh wait, I’m supposed to do this first.” I wasn’t surprised when she told me my prescription hadn’t changed because I don’t think she thoroughly examined my eyes. The exam was the easy part, then it was to the front desk to pay my co-pay and order contacts. I expected the payment part to be difficult because it always is at this office. I always buy one box of contacts per eye and if I need more throughout the year, I call and order more. Simple. The secretary (who claimed she knew nothing about contacts because she always wears glasses and also proved that she shouldn’t be responsible for adding up customer’s total cost) tried to make me believe I needed 8 boxes of contacts and owed $150 and that’s after insurance covered their part! Well, of course I would need 8 boxes if I only wore each pair for 2 weeks and threw them out. But, I’m a contacts rebel. I don’t do that. So I asked her how much 4 boxes would cost. She told me it would be $57.05, including my copay and after insurance. Not a big deal, except I only needed 2 boxes, one per eye. So after she wrote down on the order form “4 boxes” without my permission, I asked her how much it would be to just order 1 box per eye. I opened a can of worms. Sassy Suzie with purple glasses and fried blonde hair that was pulled up in a huge banana clip, who was filing paperwork and is the insurance Nazi, decided she would butt in to our decision making process. I’ve delt with her before. She wants you to “get the most for your money.” For example, if insurance will pay up to $120, she frowns upon the customer allowing insurace to only pay $96 because the customer is losing $24. I had this issue with her when I was buying new lenses for my glasses over a year ago. I did NOT want frames. I like the ones I have and I didn’t want to pay extra for frames when insurance would cover all of the lenses. Makes sense, right? It does in my frugal mind. My situation today was this: 4 boxes of contacts = $57.05 out of pocket for me vs. 2 boxes of contacts = nothing but a copay. So after the calculator challenged secretary finished all her math, my decision was between 4 boxes for $57.05 or 2 boxes for free plus my copay. Sassy Suzie played the insurance card again, reminding me that I’d be losing something like $22 if I only bought 2 boxes. I was tired of her insurance opinions, so I looked her in the eye and said, “Yes, in the insurance world, I will be losing $22 but if I choose to buy 4 boxes I will be paying $57 out of my own pocket right now.”  So, the secretary asked if I wanted to divide my payments over the next few months. Umm, no. I don’t need to finance my eye doctor bill. Irritated, I gave in and just ordered 4 boxes. But maybe having more contacts than I need will keep me away from them longer…oh wait, I’m finding a new optometrist. The most important part though about this appointment was that it was scheduled for 4:30…at 4:30, I was leaving. I spent 2 minutes waiting for the doctor, 3 minutes with the doctor, 9 1/2 dealing with Sassy Suzie, and 30 seconds rolling my eyes as I quickly walked out the door.  A quick 15 minutes that normally would be convenient, but left me feeling like nothing was accomplished other than buying more contacts than I need.