Rosemary the Monster

I’m certainly not talking about my beautiful Granny Rosie! But I am talking about that horrible rosemary bush behind her in this picture. 

When we moved into our house 4 1/2 years ago, our realtor told us, “The previous owners left their garden for you in the backyard.” As if they were going to pack it up and take it with them???
By “garden”, she meant an out of control rosemary bush. And even if they did leave an actual garden, it would mean nothing to me since I have no idea how to tend to a garden. 

So tonight while our Tigers were getting completely run over by the other Tigers, I decided to cut away at this green monster (and it’s not the first time). Not only is it ugly, but it’s smelly. I normally don’t mind the smell of rosemary, but there’s just so much of it I can’t breathe when I step on the patio. And when Sanibel, who smells anyway, rolls around in it…oh my word, it’s awful!

Here’s what I salvaged after all the cutting. However, it ended up in garbage bags. Wasteful, I know. I’m sure there are tons of cute Pinterest ideas for all this rosemary. I really had plans to use it somehow. But Brent had it stuffed inside a Hefty before I could stop him. He gave me the look of “C’mon, Brittany, you know it will end up here anyway.” Think of me what you want, I’m not looking to join a gardening club.

The finished product. It will be completely removed in due time. Would you believe me if I told you that I don’t own a shovel? If that’s even the right tool to use to get this thing out of the ground, I don’t know!

My little helper. Except she’s not so little anymore! 
Totally unrelated…but I must say it, though I’m sure I’ve said it before. Auburn is more to me than football. It’s about the town, the people I met when I was there, the memories, the traditions, my education, the 1602 N. Donahue apartment, etc. No matter the outcome of the game, my heart is unchanged. I believe in Auburn and love it. 

Our yes is on the table

It’s tomorrow. The deadline Brent and I have praying about since August, pleading with God to allow Brent to meet his sales goals so we don’t have to live in a cardboard box. Like my mom said, it’s uncomfortable to ask for God’s favor because we don’t deserve it. But we need it.

So it’s tomorrow and the sales goal is not going to be met unless God does some miraculous stuff between now and midnight tomorrow.

Anyone have a big cardboard box?  🙂

I fully believe He is able, but I also fully believe His plan is not what we have been asking Him for.

Does that mean He isn’t faithful? No.
Does that mean He doesn’t hear/answer our prayers? No.
Does that mean Brent hasn’t done everything he can to meet his goals? No. He’s worked his rear end off and still found the energy to give 110% to his family.

It means that we are living Proverbs 16:9, “The heart of a man plans his way, but the LORD establishes his steps.” We are doing our best to live out what He has called us to do, but we are human and our ways are flawed. He graciously establishes our steps so we can follow Him.

I am amazed at how God has totally transformed our hearts. The thing we’ve been fervently praying about since August is now the thing we actually don’t want to happen. We thought the best thing for us was for Brent to meet his sales goals by October 20th. God has given us a peace that transcends understanding (Phil. 4:7) that His plans are different and greater.

Our prayers have changed. Our focus has changed. We now have a peace about the present time. Since we have that peace and confidence in His plan, we are relieved of stress and worry about our immediate future and our focus can be where it needs to be: on Jesus. We can look to the future with wonder and awe of what He must have in store for us. And Brent can enjoy his work without getting discouraged.

We believe God is preparing us for something better than we can imagine for ourselves. Our deepest, earnest desire is to live a gospel centered life and do exactly what God has specifically called us as a family to do. We want less of the typical American life. We want more of His Kingdom in our hearts. We don’t know where God wants to lead us. He may lead us to stay right where we are. Regardless of what He desires, we want to be aware of it and available to be used. So our “yes” is on the table. We do not want to miss what God has for us now and in the future.

Blessed is the man who trusts in the LORD,
whose trust is in the LORD.
He is like a tree planted by water,
that sends out its roots by the stream,
and does not fear when heat comes,
for its leaves remain green,
and is not anxious in the year of drought,
for it does not cease to bear fruit.
Jeremiah 17:7-8

On the Mend

Sweet girl is getting better! We saw the pediatrician today. Her poor throat is very raw and red due to all the dying seal barking coughing she’s been doing.  Lily had a negative strep test and the doc said she should be better by Wednesday. Yea!!! She even asked to eat today AND go outside to play with Sanibel. Silly Lily is on the mend 🙂 We are so thankful! I’ve never seen this girl so sick 😦 

Lily’s First ER Trip

Most of you probably saw this on Facebook already, but I want to post it here so I won’t forget. I don’t keep a baby book so this blog serves the same purpose.

Lily began getting sick on Thursday afternoon. She sounded a little congested in her chest and had a runny nose. Thursday night and all day Friday she hardly ate a thing. She started to cough and every inhale and exhale sounded raspy. Before she had tubes, going to the doctor was never in question. All colds became an infection in her ear and that had to be fixed. Now that she has tubes, we aren’t as quick to get her to the doctor. I decided to wait through the weekend and take her on Monday if needed. If nothing else, we could just take her to urgent care on Saturday.

Friday night her cough was getting worse and she was irritable, so we put her to bed early with a humidifier in her room. At 12:15am she woke us up coughing and saying “ow” everytime she exhaled. She was seriously struggling to breathe, her chest caved in whenever she exhaled, her heart was racing, and she was shaking. Scared this momma to death! I brought her into our room to lay down with Brent while I frantically looked for the thermometer, some medicine, and fixed her some water. I debated calling 911 because I really thought it was that bad, maybe it was, I don’t know. But after I checked her temperature and gave her some Tylenol to bring her fever down, she was a little calmer, but still not breathing well. I called my parents and woke them up. Thankfully they were awaiting a call from my brother who was headed to Florida for the Alabama game, so the phone call wasn’t too shocking. My mom suggested we go on to the hospital.

The drive to the hospital is a good 20-30 minutes away. Thankfully the same hospital is building a new campus closer to our house that is opening in March. Yay! Anyway, we entered the pediatric ER fully expecting to see a waiting room full of “weirdos” as Brent called them. However, we were the only ones in there! When does that ever happen? We were only at the ER for a total of 40 minutes. The doc diagnosed her with the croup and she got a good dose of some steroids. We headed home and were back in the bed a little after 2, so this whole episode only lasted 2 hours. I’d say that’s pretty good!

Lily woke up at 8 this morning. She sounds much better, but she isn’t feeling much better 😦 She was asleep more than she was awake today. It’s like we have a newborn in the house again.

The hospital is giving away DVDs…not sure why…and they gave us “Air Buddies”, “High School Musical 2”, and “Jonas Brothers”. WONDERFUL, huh? 🙂 The few moments that Lily wasn’t asleep today, we watched “Air Buddies”. She loves dogs, so this movie is perfect for her. She doesn’t know about the other two…yet. I’m sure some time in our near future those movies will find a way into our DVD player. Lily will probably love them because she loves music.

I hate seeing her so sick and being so miserable. However, I do like all the snuggle time we get with her when she is sick. She won’t do that any other time, so we are enjoying that while it lasts. More importantly, we just want her to get back to being her silly self.

There are many other things that could be wrong and we thank God that it’s just the croup.