It’s tomorrow. The deadline Brent and I have praying about since August, pleading with God to allow Brent to meet his sales goals so we don’t have to live in a cardboard box. Like my mom said, it’s uncomfortable to ask for God’s favor because we don’t deserve it. But we need it.
So it’s tomorrow and the sales goal is not going to be met unless God does some miraculous stuff between now and midnight tomorrow.
Anyone have a big cardboard box? 🙂
I fully believe He is able, but I also fully believe His plan is not what we have been asking Him for.
Does that mean He isn’t faithful? No.
Does that mean He doesn’t hear/answer our prayers? No.
Does that mean Brent hasn’t done everything he can to meet his goals? No. He’s worked his rear end off and still found the energy to give 110% to his family.
It means that we are living Proverbs 16:9, “The heart of a man plans his way, but the LORD establishes his steps.” We are doing our best to live out what He has called us to do, but we are human and our ways are flawed. He graciously establishes our steps so we can follow Him.
I am amazed at how God has totally transformed our hearts. The thing we’ve been fervently praying about since August is now the thing we actually don’t want to happen. We thought the best thing for us was for Brent to meet his sales goals by October 20th. God has given us a peace that transcends understanding (Phil. 4:7) that His plans are different and greater.
Our prayers have changed. Our focus has changed. We now have a peace about the present time. Since we have that peace and confidence in His plan, we are relieved of stress and worry about our immediate future and our focus can be where it needs to be: on Jesus. We can look to the future with wonder and awe of what He must have in store for us. And Brent can enjoy his work without getting discouraged.
We believe God is preparing us for something better than we can imagine for ourselves. Our deepest, earnest desire is to live a gospel centered life and do exactly what God has specifically called us as a family to do. We want less of the typical American life. We want more of His Kingdom in our hearts. We don’t know where God wants to lead us. He may lead us to stay right where we are. Regardless of what He desires, we want to be aware of it and available to be used. So our “yes” is on the table. We do not want to miss what God has for us now and in the future.